working it out

I'm getting closer to unpacking the box labelled "in-progress art works". I'm working each day, every few hours, to keep my blood-sugar levels consistent: not too high, and not too low. I collect the new used Aviva strips from my new meter by AccuChek and marvel at the difference between the strips I used before, and the new ones my Grandfather and I both use. The new strips are more stout, wider, thicker, but more jewel-like and potentially more delicate. there are many possibilities I've been trying to figure out for their use in upcoming works.

Baby #2 is a healthy boy according to the very comprehensive ultrasound. We're all thrilled to add another man to the house here. The pregnancy is very mellow so far: just testing on the glucometer, and a few small oddities arise here and there. We're almost half-way there.

My students remark to me about how odd it is to have a pregnant teacher. I imagine most things are odd to a 16-year-old when your teacher has a real life outside the classroom. One said today that "Everybody" is getting pregnant at the school, "what are you guys all doing?" After a short joke about "well, when a mommy and a daddy love each other very much..." I reminded her that for some women it's a really big deal to get pregnant and stay pregnant. I told her that I was told that If it were possible that I'd ever conceive (due to the PCOS) that I'd probably never carry the pregnancy to full-term, I'd miscarry. My chances of having kids at that time (age 20) was almost none. It wasn't until another 8 years when I started having hypoglycemia and saw an endocrinologist that things began to change. I was trying like crazy to avoid getting Diabetes.
At 28 it was a changing landscape with PCOS, but I was also developing Diabetes at that point. I wonder if my Dr. at my age 20 had all the current information: but as I look back, he did. It's no matter now: I can sit with regret at every high-carb snack I've ever had, or continue embracing self-awareness, and nurturing myself and my family.